La Vie En Rose

You spend your whole life dreaming about something. Be it the perfect house, the perfect person, the perfect job. But what it all comes down to is that perfect moment. That moment of pure realisation when you sit back and you take in the fact that you're there. That you actually achieved what you came for. If you never stop to smell the roses then this goal that you spent so long achieving is rarely as pleasurable as you'd hoped and prayed it would be.
I've never been one to dream about a career path or a man and our perfect children and house with it's very own and very perfect white picket fence. No. I've dreamt of renting the perfect inner city apartment and traveling the world. I rent the perfect little inner city apartment which is adorned in all my loved possessions and I am traveling the world. Who would've ever imagined?
Perhaps my dreams and goals were never that ambitious - but you don't choose the things you love. It chooses you. I've always gravitated towards anything Parisian. Within decorating my apartment, the photos of places I thought were beautiful, the old stories about Moulin Rouge and the night life of the bohemian, voluntarily impoverished artists and their debauchery and free love.
Last night I sat under the Eiffel Tower, all lit up - (but not glittering like a bold, brash drag queen that P.Dailly so perfectly described it to be when the light show is on) listening to La Vie En Rose tinkering out from the music box I bought earlier in the day, and I cried. I'm not sure if I cried because I was happy - if I cried because I felt like this was the peak and that it's all downhill from here - if I cried because the moment in itself was so fucking perfect that I can't describe it without using the fuck before perfect just to put such a hard emphasis on the true magic of it all... but whatever it was I let out and it felt like I always hoped it would.
I looked up at the Eiffel Tower and I thought to myself that for every moment my life has felt less than incredible. For every time I have wanted to give up - this was why I didn't. And it was beyond worth it.